Rising from the ashes
There is none but a burning flame
consuming like wildfire
racing through the soul
eternity seeking my presences
life force in a slowly closing portal
and thou I wish it stayed
my grievance...a temporary
setback on what it has gained
oath and vows unspoken
not my choice
a ring figurative writing blinds my sight
an eye opening exchange not for the average
January ? 2026
Rafael G
God (YHWH) has healed
Just like the cosmos hang in space, in a weightless environment
Almighty God (YHWH) bears my ups/downs in the same symbiotic state we all find
ourselves...weightless,
What the Almighty and Divine, sovereign Lord of the universe seeks in form of submission is a pure heart,
with that said, something dies in (me) everyday something created internally and externally it consumes and withers the finest of (me), exhausting my reserves and I fading seeking the cause,
I wish my call came swift like the thrashing wind,
my return peaceful which my heart contends,
in the rain drops of tears, my soul soak's the journey/experience playing out an endless commotion,
in the high's and low's of distortional views, those feelings that race, shall consume just as well,
I seek the comfort of your loneliness
your (Manic) depression
your anxiety (disorder)
your bi-polar-ism
your autism (functional or dysfunctional)
your schizophrenia
your social (disorders) psychopath
Dark triad personality (closely associated with Autism)
your alexithymia
any and all imbalance that strip away your true person, the sacred person...that which in labor pains were formed,
the anomalies attached interfering with Divine gifts, spiritual cadence, expressive frequencies, bridges, channels, a network hacked,
all man-made conditions and in that comfort of your host, send them packing to the abyss never to return..."your not needed here anymore" !
Embracing sanity and returning to full expression, releasing the fruits of the spirit
and acquiring the attributes of Holiest and Divine,
my happiest moments were not so difficult after all.
Praise him while you can...just praise him !
Please allow (me) to worship you (YHWH)
02/24/25
I'm not certain what to make about all this.,
I don't know if I be alive tomorrow,
I don't know if the world at large, will go into convulsions any giving time,
I can't measure the movements of the celestial chariot, and it's Divine will,
I'm much aware that the divine will of Jehovah must take place and the mandates. I must follow any access of charitable kindness, and the favor already over outreach,
my focus that which is to praise and sanctify the Holiest-of-Holiest and clarify his name from any
wrong leveled against the purest truth, reveal the counterfeits and the conspiracy to bring reproach, against rightful justice,
the most benevolent love, a father (Creator) of countless physical and spiritual beings, innocent of any guilt and partiality, unbiased, character assassinated and envy latched that I still question such acts of gross disobedience,
24 and around the clock we serve under fire, under pressure, under the same apparatus of hurtful schemes, undermining anything along it's host...
we are your witnesses.
11/17/25 12:31 AM
God (YHWH) has healed, Rafa EL
Everything is meaningless when I hold the greatest of means,
happiness and self fulfillment aren't achieved in the abundance of the eye's view,
life takes on a different trajectory when abundance become enough and by all means the whole person is manifest like light and shades in a complete day cycle (subtle),
we hardly take into account the transition but very visible to the well learned,
to be gainfully intuitive the adaptation is meaningless if we didn't have a guide,
in our ups/downs and fault-lines the enrichment and vastness made riddles of what is considered valuable and what is low grade,
in the Lord and Almighty God I found every purpose to which that guide labored and is at work to this day to bring forth a suitable vessel to frame in his grandiose glory,
it would be oblivious to (me) to take up means (trivialities), when I have all the resources,
with that said in Almighty God (YHWH) I trust...in debt and meaningful needs, carry-out your Divine will !
Yes, and by Divine and meaningful outlook I stay on course, that which summons (me) and a yearns to connect and expand in more ways meaningful then the last,
I am aware of my call just like any-other spiritual person, and under that endowment a separation is at work...so if we can "stay the course" you be helping us in achieving those means, and that is a blessed compliment.
Please allow (me) to praise,worship you (YHWH) while I can....
Transformation-of-dying-thought Clic here
Rafael G Gonzalez
From the day we first open our eyes into a new world from the time capsule, insulated by means beyond the human comprehension, life is in full swing of surprises
and tripwire. We all have to make the upstream run if we are to experience life's real challenges.
As the experiences expand there are countless roads to entice what little as gained.
What little as gained to broaden the experience and in which way life is heading. There are no markers on the road to travel or guides-lines to follow. Even the well learned takes the same path, but with a different stroke. "The poor and the rich have embark on a race they will both greet at the end" that is life.
The wise makes use of the many twist and turns and engage the platform revealed before them, and the wise choice is also loaded with the unforeseen. A power at play in which the average has little insight and gainful knowledge to offset the power at play and under-minding the whole manifestation.
From the opening of the physical eyes to the closing of that awakening, what has life revealed ? What meaning can we bring forth as we carry on as subjects to an indiscriminate power struggle to which we're gullible and unaware to it's methods, way above the average.
But many through a selection feel a call and it's life changing, it becomes part of what I term "The struggle" and through that struggle, life takes on a whole new meaning if we stay the course. I'm not going to outline that course...but please continue to read and be filled with the spiritual person we're all meant to be.
There is a time when a simple mind out growths it's simpleness and embrace the complexities, but with a limit success,
There is a time a complex mind expand and embrace the greater complexities and access granted, to the highest power it has no limit, yet to embrace that model it doesn't fit all.
And when I say simple it doesn't mean to continue building houses out of straws, but to encompass a higher call that which those gifts are made manifest to the general simplicity.
in the order of endowment experiences are essential (simply or complex), but the gift innate crafted as a take order that can't be dismissed. So the call is through a selection and not disregard for the call.
I hope one gets the point !
Please allow (me) to praise worship and honor the Holiest-of-Holiest !
*special guest
Rafael G Gonzalez
Reader digest !
I find it repugnant and resent those who operate under the cloak,
of secrecy and are deceitful in ways more then one,
they lack the courage to express themselves openly,
their school of thought is abnormal and riddle in flaws,
many suckers have taken the bait and practice makes perfect,
I give the honest truth and always will no matter the cause,
at disposal many are the devious ways to confess the pure doctrine,
how long can you go into hiding and not be struck by a bolt of lightening,
or could it be a broad disorder of reasoning,
or the misalignment of a polarized complex out of reach,
or the overload of fluctuations with under managed range,
for what ever reason of twist and turns engage those engines,
they keep hostage the expression and hold in bondage the sacredness of the heart, the stifling of conscience,
under the same disguise mislead the unaware,
how selfish to burn so many bridges and remain normal among the masses,
you are of very little use to me, and certainly a pleading host,
your shameful acts have a cross road and the exchange will be equal,
how can you over-step something greater and not expect a return ?
and I apologize not for anything that is truthful and worthy for the cause,
If I can express it, find it within yourself to drop those shackles and vacate the prison wall that which you so admiringly revere,
yes, I'm controversial but no more controversial then the things kept in the back burner, that I so cleverly bring to the light,
it's that the reason for distress?
Even the smallest speck of light can be seen in total darkness, that is the power which contends with vileness and obscurity,
The true son's of light are like lightning spears and when it strikes it exposes the largest to the smallest fabrications, counterfeits, and are stable reminders that nothing is hidden in the corridor of time,
Making use of what ever apparatus of deceitful schemes come into view and the repugnance that follow such deviation, it's secrets and the many layers of cover-ups are all headed to a total collapse,
As for those in the comfort zone and have made darkness a hiding place for practice, how is it that light can shine for you ? The sun shines for all and night befall us all, yet the luminaries are always present ! whether night or day, how watchful and insightful is the light !
Controversial-truth Clic here!
* Please to the general public do not take any of my experiences personal, one might come across similar experiences and shake few here and there. I express and share freely...I know no other way ! Much Love and blessings to all
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The memories of someone loved is not easy to shake,
it lingers...even postponing daily activities just for the thought,
reminiscing of events that led the fleeting soul for a moments pause,
the exchange,
the eventualities,
the innocence crushed,
finding a distraction,
the excuses,
how we grew into bitterness,
how all goodness became the hollow void,
how we took charity for the resentfulness lodged deep into lingerness,
the thought ever present,
the affliction...the chaos,
can we mend the broken pieces and find spirituality to shake a madness so ingrained ?
Yet I was courting the process through a mutual and Divine courtship so infused few
have insight of it's daily activities.
Where should I start ?
My call to return, how the Holiest-of-Holiest had a wrestling match to lessen my return,
after ex-amount of years, the greatest of fights were waged in the spirit realm and not physical.
While In my years of absences, I made it my own to engage the enemy at the highest level of his counterfeits.
To my own detriment I disowned myself, selfishness had no place to hide. I took on the model of welcome reign (our teacher "the greatest man who ever lived").
I embarked on a journey few have the call, I became a martyr everyday. I reason like Samson "please oh God (YHWH) take me to the columns just one more time" from the great gospels to the prophecies I was your messenger. The countless that awakened beyond my expectations.
My Lord always at the scene "I can say very openly I walked through the valley of death".
My Host Almighty and Divine made (me) his instrument a useful one. Everyday I became more embolden fear took a long ride on the opposite direction, courage embraced (me) and I felt a presences hard to place in words.
In 2019 just before the so-called pandemic my mother “Giro” developed a bacterial infection in one of her lungs, after a month of treatment I remember the internist of the hospital approach (me) Mr. Gonzalez, your mother has been on the extensive care and the most advanced antibiotics, and she shows no signs of recovery. My spirit became agitated, so the same spirit at work before (me) coming to Puerto Rico, to be with my mother, not overseeing this events unfolding...My Lord always at the scene. We went to work and in less then three days our wonderful “Giro” was walking out of the hospital. This is true just as I stand and sit writing this letter, Almighty God(YHWH) is my witness.
In the first week of January 2022...the greatest of fights I encounter or should say wrestling match,
Jehovah shook (me) and brought me back from my long absences, “I felt like The apostle Paul” and much like the prodigal son all in one.
After my mother (Giro) bout with death I knew we had a champion in the Lord’ so I stayed with her and cared for her the best way possible. She never again developed that menacing lung bacteria and I went to work on (me) just a few years down the road Jehovah God, Draft (me) back, I can’t give full details it would take more then a few books to chart so many events.
Just before coming to Puerto Rico, from the states in 2017’ a well trained naturopath Doctor, the third in a family succession, looked at my medical profile, and I suggested a few follow-ups on my medical chart. He agreed and referred (me) to advance medical research for blood cancer. The university of Vanderbilt and the Alice Kirkland cancer institute. A few weeks later my follow-up confirm that menacing report. I turn down all medical advise and since I stayed and practiced healthy life style two years later by default. 2019 I sold and gave away just about all. I arrive in Puerto Rico and just between 2019-2020...life for (me) took on a different twist and turns.
As I cared for my mother (Giro) also aware of my preexisting condition I went to work on (me), I can’t go into full details. But the medical community was taken by surprise, “Giro” one example and I the other and the many others I have help along the way. “If I boast in any of this let it be in the Lord”.
My cancer went into remission, I don’t no when ? In the transitional period, but I do know not by chance. I have been in service to the Almighty God, and looking forward to the final call “Here I’m send (me)...send (me)….
To my readers brothers/sisters and the global family, also friends of Jehovah...how I wish to embrace you all with tender affections and altruistic love beyond compare. So through this writings I make that wish so openly.
*please excuse some marginal errors (dates), as I read through a collection of writings.
Your brother/Friend,
Rafael G Gonzalez 💟💜
Too all those son's of light that remained faithful,
that were not enticed by trivial offers,
that held truth through the light (truth bearer's)...
unlike the defector and no place was found for him,
cast-out among the star's of Almighty God (YHWH)
you holder's and bearer's of the light,
I share with you that hope of conviction,
that steadfastness,
that unwavering love for a Divine being that has crushed my heart,
this day is a good day,
our celestial host, Almighty and Divine feels a love and loyalty only
(HE) is deserving and worthy to be elated, praised, sanctified, laud to time infinite,
please allow (me) to hold hands together,
and sing a new song for the one and only....Jehovah ! Yahweh ! Jah ! YHWH !
Rafa EL G Gonzalez
Morning glory-lets-head-out-to-fields-and-turn over some stones Clic here
The temple is missing a column,
a lamp stand,
the most colorful smile,
a certain energy that permeate
like a fixed frequency,
A vibrational Drive that bounce back and forth,
across our place of worship,
Where I summons the Holiest-of Holiest,
Jehovah where is she, let me go and look for her,
I can't miss her fine tuning,
where could I go and find such striking placement
of your finest craft ?
How would we* find inspiration to write and praise ?
her absences besiege (me), us* the essential instrument
for harmonious melodies, which we* hold so dear.
Rafa EL (YHWH) has healed.
Let me hear your loyal love in the morning,For I trust in you. Make known to me the way I should walk, For to you I turn.. Psalms 143:8
Morning Glory, let's head out to the fields and turn over some stones
and find the most precious of pearls and timeless gems.
I summons the infinite, through infinity that the works are not in vain.
Your guarantee I have, and a single pause has never failed.
Through the obstacles I found radiant and abundant light,
A gem hard to describe in essences,
Unknown to men,
Ever glowing with expressions something like a fixture, ornament from the Holiest-of-Holiest,
Light of dawn shadows (me) and in that glory I feel that warm embrace,
to the finest of gems, I reveal to you "what a heart can do"
No other can cause so such excitement in a thousand years give away, or currently exhaust my senses...she is Jehovah's love joy,
If dreaming is the counterfeit of reality, I have been dreaming all to well,
I'm certain the search will seize and the prize attained,
My devotion complete and in full embrace seeking the everlasting Vows *--* oath...show (us) the way.
Just praise him while we can....
Rafael G Gonzalez
Jehovah's true-love-joy Clic here !
May my love be your battle field,
and my loyalty overlap eternity,
Why you feel agitated and spirit unease?
Why you seek a replacement ?
do you not know who guides your disquieting heart impulses?
Let me see you smile again and cause our father's person to rejoice until he becomes filled with your grace,
I have been observing your wonderful person, but there is one who can showcase
your true expression,
This morning I woke and there stood this omnipresence, this causative feeling and you were part of this drama,
once to often it takes hold of (me) like an instrument awaiting it's performance, stage-casting to audience in amazement,
If blessing and undeserved-kindness were to be summarized, you have gone
to far...I would prefer to remain in the ashes of creation,
If this be my last to a prelude, remember you have our standing ovation.
Que mi amor sea tu campo de batalla,
y mi lealtad se superponga a la eternidad,
¿Por qué te sientes agitada y tu espíritu excitado?
¿Por qué buscas un reemplazo?
¿No sabes quién guía los impulsos inquietantes de tu corazón?
Déjame verte sonreír de nuevo y hacer que la persona de mi padre se regocije hasta que se llene de tu gracia,
He estado observando tu maravillosa persona, pero hay alguien que puede mostrar
tu verdadera expresión,
Esta mañana me desperté y allí estaba esta omnipresencia, este sentimiento causante y tú eras parte de este drama,
una vez más se apodera de mí como un instrumento que espera su actuación, presentándose ante el público asombrado,
Si la bendición y la bondad inmerecida tuvieran que resumirse, has ido demasiado lejos... Preferiría permanecer en las cenizas de la creación,
Si este es mi último preludio, recuerda que tienes nuestra ovación de pie.
Rafael G Gonzalez
12/17/24 4:17 AM
Eagle's path (Wisdom)
By all means stay focus...your very special Clic here !
Almighty God (Jehovah) is heavily invested in the quality servant you have become, from memory long ago time is witness. In being placed into the time capsule, in sacred journey and incubation through the pipe-lines of life from conception to being conceived in the workshop (womb) you are his love joy. You are Jehovah's intellectual property, He has copy right, patent and invested interest in your person. He shall not be denied any access from his creative model (you).
remain focus and eyes on prize, searching ever-forward to make him complete and deny all that which undermines that investment and his fellow worker's.
completely excommunicate the trivialities and hindrance that seem standing in the corridor of that call. The spiritual person must first go through fine tuning and alignment so that the awareness and self validation is synchronized for the task not yet revealed and access granted.
This is a moment to really appreciate the master worker and his invested interest in you and to make whole, "the potter's vessel". A time for reflections, for prayer's, for listening and bring it all together for the final gathering. Make the Almighty God (YHWH) rejoice and the fellow-worker's confidence soar like the eagle's path.
And I will say this...I'm looking forward and with great expectation as one of them who has invested interest to see that call come through...I love you very much !
Rafael G Gonzalez
To the devastation's of war and famine that follows right behind like the four rider's of apocalyptic scene's no human can embrace in a right mind set. There will always be a more serene vision for the oppressed and less fortunate. They shall rise with wings of phoenix and from the ashes deconstruct the instruments of hatred, and be the most blessed for their steadfastness in hope of exchange.
An impression is the effect or influence something has on a person's mind, often referring to the initial perception formed when encountering someone or something.
I have had many revealing encounters with my wonderful host (Jehovah) God bless be his name to time indefinite. many of the articles form part of this feeling holding (me) captive, hostage, and the social media, teeming (overflowing) with that sensational outgrowth that some term boasting. Yet I boast greatest to those feelings and Divine gifts. The subject is showered, praised with expression of endearment everyday...and God Almighty be my witness and sense of joy. And that is as truthful as (me) still standing here!
To me the purest form of language is being able to express yourself freely, When King David went after God Almighty (Jehovah) heart, what do you think that action entailed? Obviously he let go of the gifts (charity) already present, and released all back to it's rightful place. Without Jehovah help he wouldn't be able accomplish this exchange between Divinity and humanly composition.
to be balanced in all aspect of daily exchange require fine tuning,
in turn a person of exceptional gift's is constantly going through re-evaluation...like a renewal to remain focus and pliable,
by accurate knowledge we contend with the countless hacks undermining those vibrational pulls,
to be awake and sound, exceptional and gifted, through the operational of the Holiest-of-Holiest we remain fixed on the prize,
very little room for stumbling and if we error the power over weakness contends the Holy spirit,
in the order of weakness and power there is never a short-slightness. and the helper is always at the scene ascertaining absolute control and undeserved kindness,
So what should I say ? "keep your eye's on the prize and stay on mission" !
A time to shine befalls all, but not in the same order.
Rafael G Gonzalez
Grande son tus qualidades mi ser querido,
un disturbio de emociones y un amor como nunca sentido,
mi descanzo y mi levantar contiene un guia superlativo,
como me trastorna tu immenso poder,
a veces se me hace deficil comprender tu apego hacia mi persona,
gracia por haberme conocido de mucho tiempo asi atras,
se que me tienes en mira,
permiteme alabarte y elogiarte tu grandeza,
gracia por tu actos benevulos y para con mi querida,
Siento una atracción física, espiritual y magnética hacia ella,
y a veces un marco de congelada en una mirada,
Sé que hay cosas más importantes en juego y eso me mantiene estable,
y con expectativas convincentes,
Si Dios Todopoderoso actúa, me siento completamente bendecido.
se me reboza el alma y me pierdo en pensamientos una vez y mas...
mi inquietud me saquea,
y se que tengo algo especial que me rodea,
fuerzas especiales me abrigan como si fuesen mi propia piel...
a quien y que debo temer ?
Querida/querido no puedo pedir perdón,
Escribo pensamientos hermosos para gente hermosa, y no lo digo con desdén, porque el amor verdadero es implacable (sin excusas).
No busca validación, y en el poder más alto está el cordero del sacrificio...
la pureza de amor !
a riot of emotions and a love like never before felt,
my rest and my awakening contain a superlative guide,
how your immense power overwhelms me,
sometimes it is difficult for me to understand your attachment towards me,
thank you for having known me so long ago,
I know you have me in mind,
allow me to praise you and commend your greatness,
thank you for your kind deeds and for my dearest one,
I feel a physical, spiritual and magnetic attraction towards her,
and at times a freeze-frame from a stare,
I know greater things are at work and that keeps me stable,
and with convincing expectations,
if Almighty God at work I feel completely blessed,
My soul overflows and I lose myself in thoughts once and again...
my restlessness plagues me,
and I know that I have something special besieging me,
Special forces shelter me like my own skin...
Who and what should I fear?
my dear I can't ask forgiveness,
I write beautiful thoughts for beautiful people,
and don't mean that in a dismissive order,
because true love is unforgiving (unexcused),
it doesn't seek validation, and at the highest power is the sacrificial lamb...
the purest love !
Rafael G Gonzalez
Expand your creative activities and shame, cause the counterfeiter to go into convulsions (misfits), that your love and undeserved-kindness has no rival. Execute your fine-tuned attributes and fruits of the spirit, like no other period in human-kind history. Net the greatest collection of choicest expressions and make them whole for your grand schemes.
I can see that all to well....
Praise and honor to the Almighty God, to the highest power !
Let your light shine through the truth, may it pierce the hardest substance, make the enemy of the Almighty God (YHWH) Jehovah... uncomfortable with your presence. Cause him to slip in your, steadfastness and greater vision of faith. Become a memorial in the scrolls of life, at the gates leading to eternity. Be one of those who can stand in victory, likeness and fashion of "Welcome Reign" I be there with you or die trying at the final call we can say...mission accomplished.
* YHWH
Rafa EL G Gonzalez
02/14/24
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Thank you Almighty sovereign LORD universal host, Divine and omnipresent, Thank you for making (me) part of "the last call" for...
